“But, what about us? We haven’t been anywhere in ages! You are busy all the time, either with your job, or with your friends. Do I even have a place on your priority list?” I asked, and instantly bit my tongue.
“Don’t you start that again, now. Don’t spoil my mood, okay? Do you even know how I manage everything? Do you have any idea, how much of stress I have to undergo to maintain my position? I am tired, okay? And, I need a break,” the last sentence spoken in the cold tone, that said I dare not argue anymore.
I kept mum. When was the last time we had taken a break, just the two of us? When was the last we had spent some time with each other? There was hardly any conversation between us anymore. Where were we heading? I had tried my best to adjust to him, to life with him, but, now I could feel myself failing, miserably. Did we even have a future together? There was really no point talking about it right now, or any other time, for that matter. How he hated discussing these things! Life, for him, was a business contract, where there was no place for emotions. Just his luck, that he had a wife, who invested emotions in everything she did, every relation she had!
Every time I tried asking him for some time – for some of his precious time – I was met with the usual: I am busy. I have meetings. My friends grumble they don’t get to meet me as often. I am tired. I am stressed out. I have problems at work. I am not in the mood. I am bored. Every thing revolved around the ‘I’. Did ‘we’ even exist?
He zipped his bag shut, took one exasperated look at me, and walked out of the bedroom. I stayed on the bed, exhausted, drained of any emotions. Drained by the sacrifices, the adjustments, the loneliness. Never had I imagined our life turning out like this; my life-partner, letting go of the hand he had promised to hold, for the rest of his life. But then, never had I ever realised, that everyone is self-centred; it’s just the radius that differs.
I lay down on my bed, lost in thoughts. The tick-tock of the clock, the whirring of the air conditioner, the outdoor noise, all keeping me company, as I slowly drifted off to sleep.
The above post has been written for Wordy Wednesday.
This week’s prompt: Sentence prompt: Everybody is self-centred; it’s just the radius that differs.
This week’s prompt comes from blogger-writer and B-A-R member: Shilpa Garg.