Kavita had been sitting motionless for hours now, deeply immersed in her thoughts. The impending arrival of the prospective groom to ‘see’ her had been driving her to despair. Pleading with her parents for some more time had been a futile attempt, leading to a worsening state of turmoil. Thoughts of rebellion and defeat rose simultaneously within her, sending her deeper into the chasm of desolation. But, giving up was not an alternative for her now; building up a fighting spirit was what she needed to concentrate on.
“They will take one look at me and reject me outright. The kind of genes I have inherited will ensure that! And, after they have gone, and my folks tch-tched about my rotten luck, life will get back to normal. And, then, within a few days, I will move out. Anisha has waited so long! We have waited so long. Our dream for our future together…it will all come true one day. Dad and ma will never understand, never agree. They will, of course, put their foot down.
“No way!” they will say. “We don’t want a daughter-in-law, we want a son-in-law, for heaven’s sake! Are we living in America? All this gay and lesbian business is for those foreigners, not us Indians! And, it’s a disease – this ‘thing’ – don’t you know? Our daughter, a lesbian? ! Chii! What will people say?They will spit on us! They will throw us out of the community!”
“Blah, blah, blah…they will go on and on. But, I am not going to pay heed to them. or the society, or anybody! Screw them all! it’s my life, my happiness and I will fight for it, fight for my rights!”
Kavita sat knotting and unknotting the end of her dupatta, her heart beating faster with a strong current of revolt that now ran through her. Her mind, engaged in all the wishful thinking, had washed away the fear of all these days and replaced it with a courage that left her emboldened!
How she yearned to be with Anisha – her love, her life! How she hungered for freedom from the closeted life she had been living all these years! She would not cower in fear anymore; she would give it her all, till the very end!
Will her dreams come true? Only time will tell.
*And, only time will tell , if the countless Kavitas and Anishas the world over will be able to live the life they have dreamed of. Our “normal” thinking society that frowns upon homosexuality, thinking it to be a disease, needs to learn to embrace life in every colour and accept people along with the life they wish for themselves. Just live and let live – it’s that simple!
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*Today’s prompt: Wishful thinking.
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