270 followers on Metanoia
314 followers on Instagram
1337 Likes for posts on Metanoia
10,600 footfalls on Metanoia since its inception last August.
You must wonder why I am mentioning the number of followers and the number of Likes I received for my posts, isn’t it?
No, don’t worry! I am not losing my mind, neither am I trying to show-off! I am just being human (pun unintended)!
I have always maintained that I write for myself and for my happiness. Writing is what kept me afloat in the past few years through some terrible times I experienced.
However, there are times, nowadays, when my mind hungers for more. More as in, the curiosity to find out how many people Like my posts and my shares/ how many followers does my blog have, etc etc.
That’s just how we humans are — hungry for more — so it’s okay to talk about it! I mean, we are quite an unsatisfied lot, aren’t we?
Our motto in Life being —
“Yeh dil maangey more!”
So, at times, when I see the number of Likes for my Instagram pictures, or my blog posts below my expectations, I squirm inwardly. Then, I go visit other bloggers, look at their followers and ‘Likes’ and squirm some more!
Let me admit something, first. I am not in the least bit embarrassed being this frank, because, come on…don’t we all do it, albeit secretly!?
It’s okay. Go ahead, admit it!
We are all humans here — flawed beings with minds that work in weirdly unexplainable ways. There may be some blessed and ‘sorted’ souls who give two hoots about who reads their posts, or Likes their stuff, but the majority of us do…even if unconsciously!
And, I place all the blame squarely on social media for this hunger that we humans have developed. The more Likes, the more Followers, the higher our self-esteem.
Pathetic, isn’t it? As if these ‘significant’ numbers are going to get us any special recognition, or some award for Life!
So, I am writing this post to get help for myself. Help in learning to move beyond this ridiculous belief. Help in assuring myself that numbers aren’t everything.
I know for a fact that “Content is King“; I also hold on to this belief and work accordingly. But, it’s for those rare moments when the thoughts, nay, the obsession with numbers takes over my sanity and leaves me feeling miserable.
So, today’s post is really a request for help for me and many more like me, to get us out of this petty game and learn to blog/write/create in peace, just for our happiness. Create with the knowledge that, success will come with time, when it is supposed to, and until then, all we ought to do, is keep working with happiness as our only goal.
So, anybody…somebody…with a piece of advice for this at-times-distraught soul?
Do you, too, indulge in this number game? If you have ‘been there, done that’, then pray tell me how you shifted your focus from the numbers to your happiness.
My theme for the A to Z Blogging Challenge is all about my blog, Metanoia, and my blogging journey from the time I started, 5 years ago. The lessons I learnt, the tips and tricks I picked up from fellow bloggers and the guidelines I could have used back when I began.
You will find all of my A to Z posts here.