SOMETIMES, A BREAK FROM YOUR ROUTINE IS THE VERY THING YOU NEED!
It’s been some weeks since I have been rather infrequent on my blog. For two years, I published two posts a week, come rain or sunshine. Except for last year, when hubby took ill in the month of May, I was at Metanoia, each day, every day.
Having worked on renovating my old blog, deciding on a niche and developing Metanoia as my “workplace”, I had to take it seriously! I needed the traffic, the visitors, and the followers to see the numbers increasing. In short, I was desperate to be UP THERE, as far as my blog was concerned.
I planned the topics months in advance with images, points, hashtags, etc. But, last month, something happened. I somehow couldn’t plan a single topic after September. The three pages for October, November and December lay bare in my planner, much to my consternation.
With no ideas for any new topics to write about, and with my mind as blank as an unruled paper, I found myself struggling. It was not as much a case of Writer’s Block as it was a burnout from having worked non-stop under immense pressure to perform and stay in the race.
All that I had learned about how a blogger needs to work, plan for the future, stay abreast of all the latest technical developments of pro-blogging got to me and I crumbled under the pressure.
My mental health took a beating, and even as I type these words, I feel ashamed about how I wasn’t practicing what I preached – about making mental health a priority over everything else!
It was the herd mentality that was making me desperate to go where everyone else was going in a mad rush to make things work. Monetizing the blog, working on SEO, getting the tech-side updated and whatnot. And while doing so, I suddenly realized that the reason I had started blogging was left far behind!
I failed to understand that my life was so different from the others, and yet here I was, hell-bent on trying to create a map for my personal journey based on others’ experiences!
And, so, last month, I decided to take a break.
I was too exhausted to come up with any blog post ideas or share my posts. In fact, I was not even looking forward to it all!
I decided to take a backseat and take a good look at what I was doing and whether I was benefitting from it all.
And, you know, I discovered I was NOT benefitting in any way, least of all emotionally. And, if I wasn’t feeling happy doing it, then why the hell was I even doing it?
Thankfully, for me, with October began the ink drawing festival of Inktober and I decided to focus on my art. And, with writing assignments and Inktober, thinking about blogging was too much to take!
I gave a break to my posting strategy on Instagram, Twitter as well as Pinterest and thought to myself, “To hell with it!”.
My readers would visit me even if I did not post anything, and they did! Not as regularly as they usually do, but Metanoia does have visitors every day, and I am fine even if they are just a handful.
All the mad rush had taken away the joy of writing, sharing information, and blogging, and had left me completely drained, blindly following the strategies of others, whose journey so differed from mine.
It was during these days that I also realized how such breaks are so necessary if you wish to stay sane in today’s mad world. For, if you keep running, there will come a day when you will hate it all–the mad race everyone is in, and also yourself, for being so obsessed with “making it”.
Frankly, no one’s keeping tabs as to who makes it and who doesn’t, so why worry?
Why not follow our methods and work as per our rules, our capabilities, and in line with our circumstances?
The competition today is crazy and each one out there wants to make a name for themselves.
Every second person is a blogger!
I discovered recently that around 2.9 million blog posts are published on WordPress every single day!
We are in competition with that many posts; and, if you keep pushing yourself in a bid to outdo those 2.9 million posts, can you imagine your condition at the end of, say, a month?
Well, do the math and think about it.
So, take that break if you feel you have had enough of it all.
Take a break if you are out of ideas to keep your blog going.
Take a break if you feel you are losing your peace of mind because, without that peace of mind, buddy, whatever you write won’t even be worth it! You need to be true to yourself, right?
(Here, at Metanoia, I write about mental health and the need to care for it, no matter what. But, I realized I wasn’t following my own suggestions! Doesn’t that make me such a big hypocrite?).
Taking a break won’t harm anything, believe me. It won’t matter if people don’t visit your blog, or if your traffic goes down. But, it will definitely matter if YOU suffer, YOUR mental health suffers.
Remember the reason you began blogging? For the joy of sharing your thoughts, for the happiness it brought you.
If your blog is not your primary source of income, take a break from it all and come back refreshed. That break could very well serve as an eye-opener for you!
Sometimes, when we take a break, we may find that solutions then present themselves!
I have realized that what works for others won’t work for me as my situation is completely different.
That, I need to focus on what gives me joy, which will benefit me in the long run. And, hence I have decided to follow my heart.
Because MY peace matters most.
I wish to thank you from the bottom of my heart for visiting Metanoia. This blog wouldn’t have flourished so beautifully in just a couple of years had it not been for you! So, thank you, and love you!
I will begin writing when I am ready for it.
Lots of love,
Categories: Reflective Writing